It’s been a hot second since we’ve had a nice moment to connect. Nine days to be exact. How are you?
The last time I sat down to write a post, something strange happened. I was at my computer, typing along like I always do, and I found myself hitting some roadblocks. This isn’t so unusual. It happens from time to time that I have to skip ahead to keep my momentum and then circle back around and fill in blanks here and there as I’m rereading and editing.
This time was a little different though. There was a lot of skipping and only a little momentum. When I got to the end of the post something didn’t feel right. As I reread back through, it was like there was a glitch in the matrix. Each time I tried to edit a section to create cohesion and flow, another completely new idea would emerge. The post was a hodge podge of rabbit trails all leading to little cliffs where I found myself dangerously teetering over edges of abysses. Yes, plural. Edges. Abysses.
And then, 09385u ]0 p’odfi= n795y ‘pWE! Blip! I had to close my computer. My brain was beginning to spark and smoke. I think I must have short-circuited.
Resting With The Deep Waters
For all my talk of being mindful and taking breaks and finding rest, I may have missed a few road signs. At any rate, the message was received. And I have been resting.
Over the past nine days, I have been taking lots of naps. Reading good and beautiful books. Watching poignant shows. My vivid dreams are coming back. I’ve been journaling like crazy. With a pen in my hand. Like, old-fashioned handwriting. My best and truest form of processing. I’m having revelations and new perspectives.
I really love flow. And I am pretty great at it. Even when there isn’t much flowing, I can force out at least a trickle here and there. For the past week, though, I have simply turned off the spigot. Allowing the flow to gather in me. Resting with the deep waters. And it has been good.
I Miss You
And I miss you! I’m looking forward to sitting down and opening up the spigot again. I’ll know it’s time when I find myself back in a wonderful season of overflow. Until then, I’m collecting all sorts of beautiful imagery and wisdom and insights for our next round together. Stay tuned~
If you know what you need to do but are nervous about the path, if you find that it’s hard and good and nerve-wracking and essential to take good care of yourself, let’s be friends~